I haven’t been up to much, just thinking. Free write journal entry.

The problem

I have been thinking too much. Too much about things that I don’t need to be thinking about. I have been worrying too much about things that are out of my control. I need to gather myself and start affirming the fact that most things in life will simply not go my way.

Ive brought myself a lot of worry and stress thinking upon the future when most of the things will most likely never happen, and if they do, then they do, but they haven’t happened yet.

So why do I worry.

Why do I worry so much?

Worry is like a rocking chair: it gives you something to do, but it never gets you anywhere.

Erma Bombeck

I’m not sure why I worry so much, I’m aware that it brings me no benefit but for some reason when I go down the rabbit whole of overthinking or worry, that awareness seems to fleet my mind.

Would you say that is because that awareness isn’t really there? Are you over estimating you’re level of understanding you have over whats going on?

Most likely, yes.

I for some reason think I have to know what is going on, if I don’t my mind seems to automatically think the worst.

If I were to say it is because of something I would say its because my train of thought whenever I’m not sure of what is going on seems to be the worst possible situation.

Because of fear of resentment? dis-attachment? loss? simply something not going the way as planned?

There could be many roots to that happening but I feel the best way to work at this is to just really be conscious of what I’m thinking, and be realistic about my thought process. Being sure not to get caught up in a rabbit hole of thoughts that are merely thoughts. Looking at the future with a more positive perspective.

Closing statements.

I havent done an entry in a while, I have been in a mental rut but I know that I need to keep moving forward, not matter how fast or slow.

I hope you have a great day.

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